A walk through the garden

Our God is so good. Even though I'm losing this baby, this baby I want and I love, but who is too tiny for me to find, Jesus will find her. He will take care of her until one day giving her back to me. I hate death. It pervades us, and haunts us. There will forever be an empty place in our family where this little baby was supposed to be. She was already so loved and we were so excited to be getting her. Even though we only had a week to know about her. I hate thinking about losing her and having to leave her in the trash or sewer. She's too tiny, I can't find her. Jesus, help.